Uninspired

To be honest, life's not that bad. This must be just one of those days or probably weekends, where I feel kind of down and lonesome, eventhough I have a crowd around me. Crowd as in people I can just call to hangout, fact, my parents are in town.

I really don't feel like exercsing these days, what more diet. Wait, to be honest, I am doing quite alright in the dieting part. I've reduced my intakes and actually stop eating late at night. That should be a good start. Let's take things slow. I know it's not all the healthy food we're supposed to eat but at least I eat the everyday starchy food in moderation. I just don't have the drive/motivation to take it anymore than that.

I'm actually focused on my career. I actually understand the things I'd have to do to get to the next level, though I have to admit, maybe it's the environment of the office, but in a bigger chance, it's probably me, I'm not all fired up though. I mean, I'm doing all the thing required for me to become a better engineer but something pulling my heart chords and I'm quite sure it's not cholestrol. I'm doing them but not in a blazing way, if you catch my drift.

So I guess,in a traditional loser kinda way, I'm there but not really there. I'm doing things but not up to my capability,unless this is my capability, which I hope not. I just feel tired and uninspired. Maybe I just need some rest/vacation but I don't have the budget at the moment. I'll go back home next week.I just have to do this all alone,no distraction.Maybe I'll chill in Pulau Ketam myself come November,hopefully I get the Fraser Hill bungalow in December for my family,then spend some time exploring Penang with my friends.In the meantime,it's crunch time.Keep my purse string tight,focus on my career,try to resurrect my passion for losing weight.

Religion-wise,I've been great compared to the past few months.Religion's personal,it's between me and the big Guy up there so I shan't elaborate further.

Chicks-wise,I'm doing ok,or better than ok. I don't have any now but I got a few great company (as in people to hang out with) and I salute myself for having the courage to ask one of my crush out and though it didn't worked out,I know I tried.And the maturity over the years just shows cause I'm not frustrated or disappointed due to the results,fact I think at least now we're better friends. I'm already looking at the second target but with due respecdt to her, maybe I'll give some leeway time before I do anything. If not, what am I? Just jumping from one target to the other?

Where the hell is everyone in my MSN list. Can't be that they're all still asleep. It's almost noon now.